Well, here we all are, wondering why?, how? we arrived at this spot at this time.
It's not fair, it's not easy, it adds an extra layer of stuff to sort through in life, an extra layer that in a perfect world wouldn't even raise an eyebrow.
Never the less, hear we are.
My name is Alex, I'm 49 and I've been out as a "Bisexual Identifying" man for about the last 6ish years.
I've probably had it easier in some ways as I've never been married or had children so those beautiful complications aren't an issue for me, I only have those pesky voices in my head that call me "faggot" and tell me I'm "destined to die of AIDS" to deal with.
And that constant uneasiness that maybe I'm Gay and just too afraid to say it, to afraid of the stigma.
I spend my days looking men and thinking "hmmm you're hot" and then I might have a sexy as fuck dream about gorgeous women, most of my sexual fantasies are hetro but I have a crush on a beautiful Italian man at work, this for all of the mess and confusion is my life, its a mess but I'm lucky to live in a more enlightened time and feel there are resources like this site for me to lean on when needed.
I don't have the answers but life's messy for everyone so don't feel like its up to you to make it perfect cos it aint going to happen, you cant live your truth until you know what the fuck it is....
I wish you all the very best and hope you find some peace and joy that you fully deserve and look forward to being apart of this journey with you.